This morning, my daughter, Olympia, who turns 5 this month, and I have been on our strategy to get her a brand new passport earlier than a visit to Europe. We’re in my automobile, and she or he’s holding my telephone, utilizing an interactive instructional app she likes. This robotic voice asks her a query: What do you wish to be while you develop up? She doesn’t know I’m listening, however I can hear the reply she whispers into the telephone. She says, “I wish to be a giant sister.”
Olympia says this so much, even when she is aware of I’m listening. Typically earlier than mattress, she prays to Jehovah to deliver her a child sister. (She doesn’t need something to do with a boy!) I’m the youngest of 5 sisters myself, and my sisters are my heroes, so this has felt like a second I have to hear very fastidiously to.
Consider me, I by no means wished to have to decide on between tennis and a household. I don’t suppose it’s truthful. If I have been a man, I wouldn’t be penning this as a result of I’d be on the market taking part in and successful whereas my spouse was doing the bodily labor of increasing our household. Possibly I’d be extra of a Tom Brady if I had that chance. Don’t get me fallacious: I really like being a lady, and I beloved each second of being pregnant with Olympia. I used to be one among these annoying girls who adored being pregnant and was working till the day I needed to report back to the hospital—though issues bought tremendous sophisticated on the opposite facet. And I virtually did do the inconceivable: Lots of people don’t understand that I used to be two months pregnant after I gained the Australian Open in 2017. However I’m turning 41 this month, and one thing’s bought to offer.
I’ve by no means favored the phrase retirement. It doesn’t really feel like a contemporary phrase to me. I’ve been pondering of this as a transition, however I wish to be delicate about how I take advantage of that phrase, which suggests one thing very particular and necessary to a group of individuals. Possibly the most effective phrase to explain what I’m as much as is evolution. I’m right here to let you know that I’m evolving away from tennis, towards different issues which might be necessary to me. A couple of years in the past I quietly began Serena Ventures, a enterprise capital agency. Quickly after that, I began a household. I wish to develop that household.
However I’ve been reluctant to confess to myself or anybody else that I’ve to maneuver on from taking part in tennis. Alexis, my husband, and I’ve hardly talked about it; it’s like a taboo subject. I can’t even have this dialog with my mother and pa. It’s prefer it’s not actual till you say it out loud. It comes up, I get an uncomfortable lump in my throat, and I begin to cry. The one individual I’ve actually gone there with is my therapist! One factor I’m not going to do is sugarcoat this. I do know that lots of people are enthusiastic about and sit up for retiring, and I actually want I felt that manner. Ashleigh Barty was primary on this planet when she left the game this March, and I imagine she actually felt prepared to maneuver on. Caroline Wozniacki, who’s one among my greatest mates, felt a way of reduction when she retired in 2020.